Long Emotional Day

Another long,  stressful day. Another day filled with joy,  tender mercies and monster big miracles.

This morning started super early to be to the oncolgy lab by 8am. New office,  new tech. Though it stung like the dickens, she got me on a first try and no bruise!  (I should seriously take pict from last 2 procedures,  looks like I have been beaten! )

Next was a ride in the elevator to the infusion office - love this,  offices used to be in 4 separate places - Met new nurse,  and saw 2 nurses from my chemo before. One of which bear-hugged me like she wouldn't let me go.  It was a very sweet surprise. Other nurse had very animated conversation about a book by a local author that is being re-released,  and included me in her excitement and chatting as she talked to the other nurses. It truly was wonderful and eased all my anxieties. Injections went really well. Burned a bit, and they held me awhile just to make sure no side effects. HUGE tender mercy that I did not,  and have not reacted to either one!  Cuddly nurse gave me another huge hug before she left (have to have 2 nurses to double check name and all drugs before admin). She said sorry I was back,  but she was happy to see me. I left with my heart lighter than it had been going into appts.

Things got crazy after that. Chemo med still had not arrived. Ended up on the phone with gal who was hugely not helpful in any way. Got off the phone flustered and worked up over the fact that med could possibly not arrive for 14 business days (got shipped totally wrong and was supposed to be here yesterday) I checked in with Preston who was watching every tracking everything trying to find the pkg that seemed to be lost. If it wasn't so time critical there would be breathing room,  but it is, and there is not. More about this later. ...

I also needed to tweak my new CPAP. On a recommendation,  I called the office to try to squeeze in today to save me from long drive tomorrow. Thankfully 2 techs were in early. One helped me get everything squared away. Another HUGE tender mercy.  I had a not good snag that has kept me from using my machine. Not breathing has been a challenge. SO happy to have it back,  and new plan that seems like it is going to really work! The people at the office are so nice,  it was a true blessing to have their help and their happiness.

After a couple more errands and I finally got to the post office. I have avoided the PO at all costs since new staff has been in place. They have made things very difficult and have been very unkind.  Preston had let me know his info showed meds had been,  in fact,  delivered to the post office. I talked to the post office guy and explained what I was looking for. Initially he told me no new pkgs had been delivered since morning,  but I could give him tracking  #'s to show they were there. I almost was in tears. I tried to explain the pkg was critical and had been shipped incorrectly. He went and looked, and came back with a pkg in hand,   I was so thrilled - and then I opened it - it was not the chemo meds. I went back in and told him it was the wrong pkg. I left totally heartbroken and sat in the car to call Preston. He could see the tracking info that the chemo pkg had been delivered. In the midst of our conversation,  I noticed the post office guy walking quickly outside the post office with a pkg in his hand - our precious pkg - I quickly jumped out of the car and followed him back inside. I ripped the pkg open right in front of him and there it was.  I thanked him profusely, though it wasn't enough to truly express my gratitude and relief, for taking time to look for the pkg and to look for me. He went out of his way to find that pkg and to come outside to hopefully find me. I am thankful beyond words because heavenly father heard my begging pleas all day to please bring the meds today. He sent a very kind person willing to go the extra mile to help us make sure we took meds home today. Once again,  someone who puts people ahead of protocol. Huge tender mercy to have new staff in place.

I know that all my thank you's to heavenly father were not,  and never will be enough, but I hope they were a start. I am so thankful,  and also totally terrified to go down this road again.  Even though I am scared, I know there will be more tender mercies than we can count.  Today was 1 of many miracles I have already experienced in the last 2 months, 1 of many I know are still to come. I know that as I trust in heavenly father and look to the promises He has made that we will get through things,  one day at a time, one appt at a time,  one med and side effect at a time,  one heartfelt hope at a time, one thank you at a time....and come what may,  we will strive to love it, and learn from it,  and grow to be closer to who heavenly father needs us to be.

Rory